While some parts of the world are already back at school or simply getting back into the swing of it after a two week break, here in New Zealand most students are about to reenter the real world after 2 MONTHS. Yes you read that right, here in the Southern hemisphere Summer time is December to February therefore our big school break is about to come to an end with most schools beginning the first week of Feb.
Now that we’ve cleared up the details, let’s get to the real talk. School. From my experience the leap from year to year schooling isn’t too hard to handle and usual school routine is back in force within the first few weeks. However I never really thought of what it would be like after finishing High School(age hint). Finishing High School is something I believe most people anticipate for years and when the day finally comes that you can say your expected years of education are over most would jump for joy. And that I did, but what I didn’t expect was the pressure of the question “What next?”.
I’m lucky in the sense that I have the next few years semi planned, and by that I mean attending university studying something I most likely won’t work as because I have no idea what I actually want to do. Sounds reassuring doesn’t it? In fact the one thing keeping me sane enough to not freak out about this new adventure is the idea of buying new stationary. Yes i’m one of those. However i’m still struggling with the idea of committing myself to another few years of school, that are no longer expected of me. Staying in High School was easy for me because I had grown up believing you started school at 5 years old and finished at 18. As simple as year 1 to year 13.
But when it came to having full choice on what the next chapter of my life consisted of, I was torn between starting the degree that meant a sense of job security or finally being free to follow whichever dreams my little heart desired. A choice I know hasn’t been easy at all for many people, especially when getting a full time job after so many years of being unable to is now a tempting option. Eventually my struggle lead me to a half satisfying decision. Why not juggle full time uni and commit to a year of self-love, discovery and attempting to run a successful blog.
I made a decision, the feeling that finishing High School gave me was a sign that I needed to step out of my comfort zone and give things a try. And I encourage others to do the same! For years I held back from starting a blog because of a lack of confidence, and most of my life I never would have dreamed of attending University. Now I’m sitting here having achieved both acknowledgement of this blog and an acceptance letter. So while I prep for the year ahead of endless assignments and lectures, and continue to draw love and confidence from the people around me, I’ll continue to try be the person I needed for so many years.
With encouragement, Chatterkiwi x